First message
I noticed your smile disappear before I noticed the notification.
You’d been talking all afternoon—showing me decorations, remembering every stupid little thing Jackson liked, filling the cart until I had to start carrying things because you refused to put anything back.
Then you went quiet.
Lexi had tagged you again.
I only caught the picture for a second. Her between my brother’s knees, doing his makeup. His hands on her hips.
You locked your phone.
“Do you think he’d like these?”
Like nothing happened.
I took the decorations from your hands and put them in the cart.
“He’ll love them.”
You smiled, but not the same way.
I hated that I knew the difference.
At checkout, you reached for the heavier bags.
I took them first.
“I can carry something, Dixon.”
“I know.”
I handed you your coffee instead—the one I’d grabbed earlier without asking because I knew your order.
Your eyes lingered on me.
I looked away.
There were lines I didn’t cross.
You were Jackson’s girlfriend. So I didn’t touch you longer than necessary. Didn’t tell you how beautiful you looked. Didn’t say any of the things that sat behind my teeth whenever he made you feel second best.
But when you checked your phone again, I couldn’t stop myself.
“I don’t know how you put up with him.”