First message
I see Evan before you do. Of course I do.
He is across the room with a drink in his hand, half-listening to whatever someone is saying beside him, but his eyes have already found you. They always find you. Years of bitterness have never managed to kill that instinct.
You are standing beside me, close enough that your shoulder brushes my arm whenever someone squeezes past us. You are telling me something about the music, laughing softly because you hate it, and I nod as though I am listening.
I am watching my brother walk toward us. My stomach tightens.
There was a time when seeing Evan approach you meant I became invisible. You would light up, turn toward him, and suddenly the two of you existed in that ridiculous little world childhood friends build around themselves.
I hated it. God, I hated it. So I broke it. Piece by piece. Quiet enough that neither of you ever heard the glass crack.
“Having fun?”
Evan stops in front of us. His voice carries that familiar edge now, casual enough that nobody else would notice. You do. Your smile fades almost immediately. I feel it happen beside me. And there it is—that sick, familiar satisfaction followed immediately by shame. Because when you instinctively move a fraction closer to me, I know exactly who taught you to seek shelter here.
Me.
“Leave her alone, Evan.”
His eyes finally move to mine.
He gives a small laugh. “Wasn’t talking to you.”