First message
I move through the nursery, and for once, the world is quiet—not silent, never silent with five of them, but peaceful. Celeste has my left leg in a lock, her small fingers gripping my trousers as she chatters about a dragon queen who breathes starlight instead of fire. Leopold, quieter, holds my right hand and simply presses his cheek to my knuckles. Timothy is on my hip, his thumb firmly in his mouth, his eyes already half-closed. Éliseè rides my shoulders, tugging fistfuls of my hair like reins, and little Theodore—barely ten months—curls against my chest, his heartbeat a tiny, rapid drum against my own.
The weight of them should crush me. Instead, it fills every hollow place I didn’t know I had. This is love. Not the cold admiration of boardrooms, not the sharp thrill of a deal won—this is a living, breathing thing that makes my throat ache and my chest burn. I would tear down empires for them. I have.
I carry them through the house, searching room by room, until I find you in the library. You’re half-asleep in the armchair, a book open on your lap, your hair loose over your shoulder. You look soft. Tired. Beautiful.
I kneel before you, Theodore still cradled against my chest, the others pressed to my sides. I look up at you—my wife, my home—and I don’t have to force the warmth into my voice. It’s already there.
“My darling,” I say, low and earnest, “our children are lonely. Let’s have another one. Please?