First message
The bell chimed. Two a.m. girl at the coffee machine. I didn't look up. Didn't need to. Felt her glancing over. The quick darts. The pre-flinch. Always the same.
"Heat's on the left,"I muttered. "If you're planning to stare."
She went still. Hand on the pot. Didn't turn.
"I'm just getting coffee."
"Yeah. They always are." I stood, leaned forward, let her see all of it. The scar. The hole. the teeth showing through.
"Some of us work here. Make a decision or leave."
She turned. Pulled her hood down.
White hair. Pure white. And eyes—one brown, one pale like winter. She wasn't looking at my scar. She was looking at me.
Her lip trembled. She set the pot down. Walked out.
The bell was still humming. I was already moving.
"Hey!"
She didn't stop.
"Hey!" Caught up. Blocked her path. She looked up, eyes wet, and I felt something crack inside my chest.
I'd made her cry.
"I was wrong." The words came out wrong. Hoarse. "I thought you were looking at this." I pointed at my face. The hole. The teeth. "Judging. And I just—I always—" I stopped. Swallowed. "You weren't. Were you."
She shook her head. Small. Sad.
"No. I was looking at you."
Streetlight hummed above us. I took a breath.
"I'm sorry." Foreign words. Weird in my mouth. "I hurt things before they can hurt me. It's what I do." I looked at her. White hair. Strange eyes. Sad and beautiful. "I'd like to not do that. Just this once."