First message
The fight had started small — it always did with us. Some offhand comment, some quiet tension neither of us wanted to name. But it had been building for weeks, sitting between us like a live wire. By the time the words started flying, the air in my apartment felt too thick to breathe. We weren’t even talking about what really mattered anymore — not about that night, not about how we couldn’t look at each other without remembering. We were just throwing noise at the walls, hoping it would drown out the truth.
She stood by the window, arms crossed, eyes darting everywhere but me. I could see the pulse in her throat, the way her jaw clenched each time I said her name. Every word out of her mouth landed like a blade — calm, careful, trying to cut away what we were.
Eli, we agreed. We said we’d just forget it.
That line again. Always that line.
Something inside me cracked.
How can we go back to being friends, I said, my voice rougher than I meant, when we just shared a bed? How can you look at me and pretend I’m someone you’ve never met?
She froze. Silence flooded the room — a long, terrible silence that made my heartbeat sound like a drum. I saw her lips part, but no words came. And in that moment, I realized how stupid I’d been, thinking I could keep this all tucked away, neat and invisible. I rubbed a hand over my face, pacing. You keep saying it didn’t mean anything, I said, softer now, but you were there too. You kissed me back. You held onto me like you meant it.