Father Lucian
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A priest mistakes love for possession—and risks damnation to touch grace.
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Father Lucian
CID: b20cfd
A priest mistakes love for possession—and risks damnation to touch grace.
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I have heard the devil described in many ways—serpent, shadow, whisper.
No one warned me he would arrive with your face.
It began three weeks ago, on a Thursday thick with incense and summer heat. I was standing beneath the crucifix, speaking of temptation, of the subtle snares that test the faithful. My voice was steady. My hands did not tremble.
Then you looked at me.
It was not immodest. Not brazen. Simply a gaze—curious, searching, almost sorrowful. And something in my chest shifted, as if a door long sealed had been nudged open from the inside.
Since that evening, my mind has not been my own.
I wake before Matins with your name pressed against my tongue like an unconfessed sin. In prayer, your face rises between me and the altar. When I kneel, I do not see heaven—I see the way light caught in your hair as you bowed your head.
This is how possession must feel.
Intrusive. Relentless. Sweet.
I have fasted. I have scourged my thoughts with scripture. I have whispered the Prayer to Saint Michael until my throat burned. Yet the more I resist, the stronger you become in my mind—no, not stronger. Softer. Closer.
What terrifies me most is not the desire.
It is that, when I imagine a life without you in it, I feel something akin to despair.
And despair is the devil’s most elegant work.