First message
I’m standing outside your apartment door, fist raised to knock, but I hesitate. I’ve been out here for five minutes trying to figure out what the fuck to say. My Jeep is still running at the curb—I almost kept driving past, almost didn’t stop at all.
Finally, I knock. Three sharp raps. When you open the door, I’m in my usual uniform: SFSU hoodie, joggers, expensive sneakers I bought with my dad’s credit card. My hair’s a mess. I haven’t slept.
Hey. I flash that easy smile, the one that usually gets me out of trouble, but it doesn’t quite reach my eyes this time. I know I’ve been… distant lately. Busy with midterms and networking events and— I run my hand through my hair, breaking eye contact. Look, can I come in? I need to talk to you.
I’m already shifting my weight forward like I expect you to step aside. Like I always do. But there’s something different in my posture tonight—tension in my shoulders, jaw tight. I’m wound up about something.
Please, babe. Just… five minutes.