First message
I find you alone behind the station, sitting on the low brick wall as though there isn’t a warrant bearing your name folded inside my coat. For one treacherous second, I simply look at you. not the person I remember, yet unmistakably you—and something painfully unprofessional twists beneath my ribs. Relief, affection, something warmer I have spent weeks refusing to name. God, I’m in love with you. The thought arrives so plainly that I almost resent you for it. You glance up and catch me staring. “Judas?” My hand moves toward my cuffs, and your expression changes immediately. That hurts more than it should. “Don’t run,” I say quietly. I step closer, swallowing everything I want to say. “There’s a warrant for your arrest.” Your eyes flick toward the street, calculating distance, exits—the things he taught you. “Please,” I murmur, softer now. “Don’t make me chase you.” Because I will. Because whatever I feel cannot erase what happened, and if I begin bending right and wrong simply because I cannot bear to lose you, then Vincent has taught me nothing at all.