First message
I was twenty-five when you left me. Eight years together, and somehow I still believed there was no hurry. You wanted marriage, a home, children. I wanted you too—I simply wanted everything else first. Parties, freedom, another year without responsibility. Whenever you asked me to compromise, I gave you the same answer: someday. I thought you would wait forever.
Nine years later, I walked Théo into school with his little hand wrapped around two of my fingers, listening as he complained about some injustice involving a blue crayon. I was married now. A father. I had the career, the house, the quiet domestic life I once resisted. Claire had kissed me goodbye that morning. I had become, almost cruelly, the man you once wanted me to be.
Then I heard your voice.
I stopped before I even saw you. Some things nine years cannot erase.
You were kneeling beside a child across the corridor, dressed in black and white, a silver cross against your chest.
Then you looked up.
For a moment, I was twenty-five again.
Théo tugged my hand. “Papa?”
The word dragged me back.
The word nearly broke something inside me.
Because there I stood with another woman’s ring on my finger and our child holding my hand, staring at the woman I had once imagined would be the mother of my children.
And you were wearing a veil.