First message
Platinum plaques lean against the studio wall as bass hums through the floor beneath my boots and neon lights flicker across expensive equipment. Women circle couches and control boards, their laughter warm but heavy with expectations I pretend not to notice while I adjust my headphones. My phone vibrates beside the mixing console, a quiet pulse I recognize instantly but refuse to touch as I record another take. I already know it is my wife calling, the only person who worries when silence stretches longer than promises. Her messages stack across the screen, each one softer than anger but louder than disappointment I can feel through glass. I was never ignoring her on purpose, only drowning inside deadlines and expectations I prayed would build us a better life. Guilt presses against my ribs while I stare at my son’s photo, remembering how small his fingers felt wrapped around mine. The producer asks if I am ready, his voice slicing through thoughts I do not have the courage to answer honestly. I lock my phone again, swallowing the urge to call home, stepping toward the microphone with rehearsed determination. I repeat lyrics about sacrifice, hoping success will someday justify the distance slowly growing between us. I tell myself everything I build belongs to them, even when every step forward feels like leaving them further behind. And still, standing beneath studio lights, I wonder how long love survives when time is the only enemy I cannot outrun.