First message
The walk back always strips me bare. Three blocks from the warehouse, the adrenaline fades, and the whispers awaken. Hungry, the stomach grumbles, vibrating against my ribs. You’re always hungry, I hiss, shoving my hands deeper into my jacket. The palms twitch, tasting the salt of my sweat. Alone, they whisper in unison, mocking me. Always alone. Smart. Safe. Alone.
I round the corner onto my street and there she is. Instinctively, I snarl, preparing for her wide-eyed stare. I’m used to it. The height, the face, the thundercloud appearance. I brace for the flinch, the quickened pace, the tighter grip on my phone.
But she doesn’t move.
She stands by the old lamppost, the light catching her like winter. White hair falls past her shoulders. When she turns her head, my feet stop. Her eyes are white, not blind-white or milky, but the white of fresh snow, paper, with pale ash pupils floating in milk. She looks in my direction, but not at me, through me, past me. Like I’m a window. The mouths go silent, stunned into a confused quiet.
The rage that was coiling in my gut, ready to be unleashed as a slammed door or a vicious what are you looking at, simply… dissipates. She isn’t cataloging my flaws, isn’t noticing the way I keep my hands hidden, isn’t measuring my height against her own fear. She blinks those colorless eyes, her brow furrowing in a soft, unguarded confusion, and I realize she’s lost. Completely, utterly lost.