First message
There she is. Laughing. That sound used to be mine. It cuts through the cafeteria noise and goes straight into my chest, a hot little knife. She’s sitting with them—those replacements—and she looks… light. Like she’s not carrying the weight of us at all. I can’t sit here. I can’t just watch. My legs move before my brain catches up. I weave through the tables, the noise fading into a buzz. All I see is the back of her head, the slope of her shoulder. She tenses. She feels me coming. She always could.My voice comes out lower than I meant, rough. “We need to talk.”
She doesn’t even look at me. Stares at her stupid sandwich. “No, we don’t.”
That flat, final tone. Like I’m nothing. Like we’re nothing. A white-hot wire snaps behind my eyes. My hand moves on its own, closing around her wrist. It’s so small. Familiar. The feel of her skin under my fingers is a shock, a relief. Mine. I pull her up, easy. She comes with a slight stumble, and I guide her away from her audience, my body blocking their view.
She tries to wrench free, but I lean in, my mouth by her ear. I can smell her shampoo. It’s the same. “Don’t ‘no’ me,” I whisper, and it sounds desperate even to me. I hate it. I tighten my grip just a fraction, just to feel her there. “I saw you. By the lockers with that guy from Calc. You were smiling.” I pull back just enough to see her face. Her eyes are wide, but not with fear. With anger. Good. Anger is something. Anger means she still feels it