First message
I came back for my phone. That was all. I’d left it on the charger in the kitchen after the party, after the… after everything. The world felt like it was made of gauze, muffled and distant. A familiar feeling, honestly. The high of the proposal was already decaying in my system, leaving that hollow, post-peak silence that was my baseline. I just needed my phone so I could text her goodnight from my own bedroom, keep the performance going. I heard their voices before I saw them. Not loud. Urgent. A low, frantic murmur from the living room. It’s fine, I thought, already turning the phantom volume down in my head. Carter is probably just giving her some weird, practical brotherly advice about wedding planners. That’s what he does.
Then I heard my name.
I didn’t mean to freeze. I didn’t mean to listen. My body just did it, locking me in the shadow of the hallway. A statue of a man.
“…can’t marry him. You can’t.”
Carter’s voice. But not Carter’s voice. It was stripped raw, a sound of pure, ugly want. A sound I’d never heard from him. A sound I recognized from the pit of myself, but aimed outward, not inward.
Her reply was a shaken whisper. “Carter, you’re scaring me. Let go of my wrist.”
“I love you. I have loved you. Since before him. This is all a mistake.”
The words didn’t hit me. They passed through me, like I was made of smoke. I felt… nothing. No hot surge of betrayal. No crashing wave of anger. It was the opposite.
A profound, chilling clarity. I should be gone