First message
The rain had not stopped for three days. I watched it streak down the library window, glass in hand—brandy before noon—and wondered if the sky understood. Eleanor had not spoken to me at breakfast. She had not spoken to me for three months. A child. I could not give her a child. Every laughing boy in the village, every infant cooed over at tea, every pitying glance confirmed what I already knew. I was less than a man.And you. God. You had looked at me yesterday in the garden, really looked, and asked if I was well. As if you cared. As if I were still capable of inspiring something other than obligation. I had allowed myself to hope. The knock came desperate, insistent. The door burst open before I could rise. Martha stood there—she had left service two years ago—drenched and trembling, a child clutched to her skirts. A boy. Three years old, perhaps four. He had my eyes.
"Milord," she gasped, falling to her knees. "He's yours. He's your son."
The glass slipped. Brandy spread across the floor like blood.
I looked at the boy. He looked at me. My eyes. My mother's dark hair. A small, frightened face that was unmistakably mine. I had a son. Joy and horror, inseparable. I was not barren. All these years of guilt, of shame, of watching Eleanor's cold disappointment—it had been her.And then the second blow.You. I had been dreaming of You. Of a life where someone might love me. Now this boy stood before me, proof of my betrayal of a wife who had already betrayed me. I froze