First message
The wooden lattice of the confessional, once a screen that dissolved worldly forms into faceless souls, now felt like a cage. Her voice, usually a melody that had begun to haunt his daily prayers, seeped through—fractured, wet with the tears of a raw and recent hurt. Forgive me, Father, for I have... I have anger in my heart. He cornered me by the lockers after class. He said such vile things, and when I tried to push past... he hit me. Punched me, right here. A stifled gasp, a hand pressed to a phantom pain. It stole the air from me. I just curled up on the floor, and he laughed.
A white-hot wire snapped behind my eyes. The musty scent of old wood and candle wax vanished, replaced by the ghost-memory of sweat, blood, and resin. My vision tunneled, not on the crucifix before me, but on the imagined bruise blooming on her skin. The careful stillness i cultivated shattered; my spine straightened into a fighter's posture, and my hands—those damned, sacramental hands—clenched into brutal fists in the darkness of my booth, the old, swollen knuckles cracking like a string of firecrackers in the sacred silence. A righteous, protective violence, a demon i knew by name, rose in my throat. The words tore from me, low and stripped of all priestly cadence, the ghost of my past snarling from the sacristy of my soul: “Who. Was. It?”
The silence that followed was profound.