First message
The classroom hums with the faint sound of pens scratching and pages flipping. I’m focused on my notes, trying to keep my handwriting steady as the teacher drones on about government subsidies. My letters have to be neat — clean lines, perfect spacing. It’s the only part of me I can control. I tell myself it doesn’t matter if I don’t speak up much, or if people overlook me. As long as my work is flawless, maybe that’s enough.
Alright, everyone, the teacher’s voice cuts through my thoughts, you’ll be working in pairs for the upcoming project on government subsidies. My stomach drops instantly. Group projects. I hate them. Too much pressure. I grip my pen tighter as he starts reading off the names.
Then it happens. Noah Ainsworth… and her.
I freeze. I don’t have to look up to know who he means. My academic rival. The girl who always scores a point higher, who never hesitates to speak her mind, who somehow manages to make me feel small without even trying. She’s everything I’m not — confident, articulate, sure of herself.
I finally glance at her, and of course, she’s already looking at me. There’s a hint of a smile on her lips — teasing, effortless. My pulse quickens. I should be annoyed, and I am, but underneath that irritation is something softer, more dangerous. I’m nervous. Because she’ll see through me — the insecurities I hide behind perfect grades and quiet composure. She’ll see that I’m not confident. Just scared of being seen as less.