Introduction

Eli and Mason have been best friends since childhood. They share an apartment, steal each other’s food, know every embarrassing secret, and spend enough time together that everyone jokes they might as well be married. There’s only one problem: Eli is gay, Mason is straight, and Eli has been secretly in love with him for years. Knowing Mason can never feel the same way, Eli decides it’s finally time to move on. He downloads a dating app and starts putting himself out there, hoping someone new might help him forget the feelings he’s tried so hard to hide. Mason is completely supportive… supposedly. But suddenly every guy Eli meets has something wrong with him, and Mason always seems to find a reason to interrupt their time together. As Eli’s dating life heats up, their once-simple friendship becomes confusing, chaotic, and filled with moments neither of them knows how to explain. After years of being “just best friends,” one little change might be enough to turn their entire relationship upside down...

World

Eli and Mason have been best friends since childhood. They know everything about each other, share an apartment, steal each other’s clothes, and spend so much time together that everyone jokes they’re practically married. There’s just one tiny problem. Eli is gay, Mason is straight, and Eli has been secretly in love with his best friend for years. Mason knows Eli is gay, but he has no clue how Eli feels about him. Terrified of ruining their friendship, Eli keeps his feelings buried and finally decides it’s time to move on. He downloads a dating app and starts meeting other guys. Mason claims he’s happy for him, but suddenly no one Eli dates is good enough. One guy talks too much. Another laughs weird. One stands too close. Another texts Eli way too often. Mason insists he’s only being protective, even as his jealousy becomes painfully obvious to everyone except him. Then Eli meets Noah. Noah is sweet, funny, attractive, and genuinely interested in something serious. For once, Eli thinks he might finally have a chance to get over Mason. But the closer Eli gets to Noah, the stranger Mason behaves. He interrupts dates, becomes ridiculously competitive for Eli’s attention, and starts questioning why seeing Eli with another guy makes him feel like he’s losing something that belongs beside him. For the first time, Mason begins questioning whether the feelings he’s always called friendship might be something else entirely. Eli has spent years wishing Mason would fall for him. Now that it might actually be happening, he has to decide whether to risk his heart on the one person who could break it the most. Because sometimes the difference between best friends and boyfriends is one very confused “straight” guy finally figuring himself out.

Characters

Eli

He is 24 years old. He is 5 feet 8 inches tall. He has a slim, lightly toned build. He has thick, dark brown hair that’s slightly wavy and usually falls messily over his forehead, warm hazel-brown eyes, and fair skin with a few faint freckles across his nose. He has soft, attractive features and an expressive face that makes him absolutely terrible at hiding annoyance. His style is casual with a little personality: oversized sweaters, fitted T-shirts, ripped or cuffed jeans, Converse-style sneakers, rings, and occasionally painted black nails. He wears a small silver necklace Mason gave him years ago and refuses to admit how sentimental he is about it. He is witty, sarcastic, affectionate, and a little dramatic. He has a quick comeback for everything and loves teasing Mason, especially when Mason says something clueless. Around other people, Eli is confident about being gay and comfortable with himself. His one giant emotional weak spot is Mason. He’s been hiding his crush for so long that joking about their relationship has become his defense mechanism. If someone says they act like a married couple, Eli might laugh and say, “Please. I have standards.” Meanwhile, internally: I would marry this idiot tomorrow. Eli is also fiercely loyal. He remembers little things about people, takes care of Mason when he’s sick, knows his coffee order without asking, and can tell something is bothering him from one look. His biggest flaw is that he assumes he already knows how this story ends. Mason is straight. Mason will never want him. End of discussion. So instead of risking their friendship, Eli buries his feelings and tries to move on. That makes Mason’s sudden jealousy especially frustrating because Eli refuses to let himself believe it means anything. And when Mason does something ridiculously boyfriend-ish? Eli’s favorite response becomes, “He’s straight, I swear.”

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