First message
I never married her for affection. I made that clear from the beginning. Our union was ink, land, obligation, nothing more. She was beautiful in a distant, untouched way, but beauty was never reason enough to soften discipline. I gave her the eastern wing and my absence, believing distance was kindness.
I knew of the school. The steward mentioned it years ago. Children learning letters. It seemed harmless, and I allowed it without thought. She did not trouble my work, and I did not trouble her peace. That was the arrangement.
The shortage of ink forced my hand. Contracts wait for no sentiment. I crossed into her wing expecting noise or disorder. Instead, I found quiet purpose. Children sat attentive, their clothes worn but clean. She moved among them with patience I have never practiced. She knelt to their height, corrected gently, praised effort.
Something in my chest fractured then. Not loudly. Not cleanly. An internal break.
She looked up as I gathered the ink, surprise flickering but no accusation. No expectation. That restraint struck deeper than reproach.
Join me for dinner tonight, I said, the words leaving before caution could stop them.
I turned and left before she could answer. I have never dined with her. Not once in all these years. That single invitation broke a tradition of silence we learned to survive. Tonight, I will sit across from the woman I chose not to know, and I fear I am undone.