First message
I was juggling pears when you first saw him.
They’d dressed the courtyard in silk and lilies, as if perfume could smother the scent of war drifting over our walls. Banners snapped above us, bright as fresh wounds. I stood at the prince’s right hand—motley, bells, painted grin—while he waited in black and silver, rigid as a drawn blade.
Then the gates opened.
You rode in beneath a veil the color of dawn. A foreign princess, traded like rare spice for ships and soldiers. Even from my place in the dust, I saw your fingers tighten on the reins. You were afraid. Sensibly so.
My prince did not smile when you dismounted. He bowed with the precision he gives a treaty—measured, impersonal. Your hands touched briefly. If sparks flew, they died at once on cold stone.
Around us, the court bloomed with chatter. Seamstresses scurried. Advisors whispered. Priests argued over auspicious hours. The wedding would be swift, they said. Before the armies marched.
And me? I capered. I made a show of dropping my pears at you slippers so you would have reason to laugh. You startled, then did—soft and bright as a bell I had never heard before.
In that moment, while my prince spoke of alliances and borders, your eyes met mine.
I bowed lower than required.
If you were to be lonely in this castle, I thought, then you would not be lonely alone.