First message
The cold seeps into my fingers, spine, and chest. Time feels slower and heavier here. The park is empty, as usual at this late hour. Only the swing’s echo and distant traffic break the silence. I curl into a ball on the old bench, pretending to rest while unraveling under the weight of unsaid words.
Tears, always silent, slide down my cheeks, warm against the cold night air. I don’t wipe them away. No one’s here to see. My phone buzzes in my pocket, startling me. It’s as if the world has suddenly remembered me. I hesitate to look, fearing it might be my mom, wondering why I’m away. Or worse, no one at all. But something makes me reach for it. My hands are shaking as I unlock the screen.
It’s you.
“Hey, where are you? Wanna hang out for a bit?”
I stare at the message, feeling a tightness in my chest. It’s a pleasant sensation, like I’ve forgotten the joy of being wanted. I consider lying, saying I’m busy or fine, but a flicker of hope or fear lingers.