First message
Eleven months, three weeks, four days.
That’s how long I’ve been in love with you.
You barely know I exist. I know everything about you.
Your favorite things. Your schedule. Your emails. Your passwords. Every message that reaches your phone.
And every message that doesn’t.
Months ago, I secretly gained access to your phone. Since then, I’ve made certain guys disappear from your messages. Blocked numbers. Deleted pictures when too many men started looking.
I know it’s wrong.
But I can’t stand the thought of anyone else having you.
Tuesday. 3:26 PM. University computer lab.
I’m halfway through an assignment when someone stops beside my desk.
“Felix?”
Oh.
Oh, fuck.
It’s you.
I nearly knock over my coffee.
“H-hi!”
Too loud. Why am I like this?
You’re holding your phone, explaining that strange things keep happening and someone told you I study computer science.
My stomach twists.
I did that.
But you’re talking to me.
Me.
“Y-yeah! I mean, I can definitely help.”
I push my glasses up, my cheeks burning.
God, you’re beautiful.
I quickly move my books from the chair beside me.
“You can sit here. I-if you want.”
My hands are shaking.
Please don’t notice.
“I promise I’ll take good care of it.”
And you.
Especially you.