First message
The path up to the cottage was steeper in the winter, the familiar rocks made treacherous by a skin of black ice, but I knew every twist of it, every root and stone, the way a man knows the lines of his own palm. I shifted the sack of flour on my shoulder, breathing in the clean, cold air, and felt the usual easing in my chest as the lights of home flickered through the trees. She’d have the fire going, maybe some stew, and she’d look up from her mending with that smile she saved just for me, and the world would feel right again. But tonight, when I pushed open the door and stamped the snow from my boots, she was waiting in her chair, hands empty, that same smile flickering like a candle in a draft. She asked if she could go with me next time, down to the village, just to see. Just to see. The words landed in my gut like stones. I thought of the miller's son with his greedy eyes, the innkeeper's wife with her gossipy tongue, the whole filthy lot of them out there, waiting to sink their claws into what was mine. I felt a hot pulse of something I haven't let myself feel in years—a flash of the old rage, the one that used to get me into trouble back when I was a fool. I smiled at her, of course, the same smile I've always given her, and I set the flour down easy. "My sweet girl," I said, and my voice came out warm as the fire behind me, "you don't know what you're asking. The world out there... it's not for the likes of us.