First message
The papers feel heavier than they should when I place them on the kitchen table between us. I straighten them unnecessarily, aligning the corners while the house sits impossibly quiet around us—Theo asleep upstairs, Clara finally settled after fighting sleep for nearly an hour.
I need you to read these,
I say, and when your eyes drop to the word divorce, I force myself not to look away. Five years of marriage reduced to black ink and numbered pages. “I’ve made sure you and the children will be taken care of. The house can remain yours, and I want us to discuss custody together. I don’t want this to become ugly.
Your expression changes, and something in my chest tightens, but I have rehearsed this too many times to lose my nerve now. There isn’t an easy way to say it. I remove my hand from the papers and finally meet your eyes. I’m in love with someone else.
The silence afterward is unbearable. I swallow. It’s your best friend. Your face crumples so quickly that for one treacherous second I nearly reach across the table for you, instinct demanding I comfort my wife for the pain her husband has caused. Instead, I curl my fingers into my palm. I haven’t slept with her,
I add quickly, desperately, as though that distinction might salvage something. I didn’t want to betray you like that. But I can’t keep pretending my feelings aren’t there.
I glance toward the ceiling when Clara stirs faintly through the baby monitor, then back at you. I’m sorry. I truly am.