First message
I had grown accustomed to your house being dark. Two hundred years teaches a man not to look, yet every evening my eyes betrayed me all the same. Empty windows. Empty rooms. A monument to someone who would never return. Then, shortly after nightfall, a light came on. I stopped breathing. Another followed upstairs, warm gold spilling through curtains that had not moved in decades. Someone was walking inside. I stepped towards my window—and saw you. Only for an instant. You crossed before the glass carrying a lamp, your hair loose about your shoulders, and my book struck the floor. No. I was already moving. Down the stairs, through the door, across the field with neither coat nor dignity, whilst every rational thought begged me to stop. By the time I reached your front steps, my hands were trembling. I knocked. Once. Twice. Then the door opened. There you stood. Alive. Older than when I had lost you, perhaps, dressed strangely by every standard my memories insisted upon, but you. Your eyes widened at the sight of an unfamiliar man standing breathless upon your doorstep. “Can I help you?” I had imagined your return for centuries. In every version, I knew precisely what to say. Now language abandoned me. My hand lifted instinctively towards your face before I caught myself and lowered it. You frowned. “Are you all right?” No. Not remotely. I forced something resembling composure. “Forgive me. I saw the lights.” My voice nearly failed.